New Year upon us...

So 2007 is coming to a close. It wasn't a great year, it wasn't a bad year. It was one of those..JUST A YEAR. I did a lot of growing though. Finding myself more and more. Learning from mistakes I've made and watching others mistakes and using them as a "What not to do" in my own life. My kids are older...but will that ever change. I can't believe how big Camden is already. He amazes me everyday. And Tyler...he's getting so mature and grown up. A little to much for his own good, but still.

I've met new friends this year...and lost some too. All for the better though.

This year will be a trial. Ian leaves for Japan in April. I know we'll be fine and make it (he sometimes has doubts, but thats just his nature). But basically for all of 2008 I will once again become a single mother. With that brings good things and bad things. I get to do it my way...all the time. Yet I have no one to lean on, or back me up when the boys are getting out of hand. I get sad just thinking about it though. Him missing out on the boys for a year, and them missing time with him. I of course will be missing out too...but I can over come all this, it isn't my childhood.

Christmas was good this year. We didn't go over board with the boys. I only got them things they really really wanted. I didn't just buy a toy, because well, it was a toy and looked cool. Tyler got a DS Lite that he's been wanting. Camden got his Train set which he was stoked about. We went home Christmas day where both boys were spoiled rotten by my parents and Ian's parents. Ty and Cam got $20 each in quarters from Ian's mom. Tyler thought that was the coolest thing ever, even though it's burning a hole in his pocket already. lol.

We leave tomorrow for PA, to go visit my Poppy. I've never been so stressed out before in my life. I had planned a schedule..when we leave, drop off the dogs, get to PA, go out to dinner, etc. But thats been shot to hell. So now I'm frustrated and stressed..but whats new with that? It will be good to see my Pop though, he's never met Camden. And since this year was his first Christmas season all alone, I'm sure he'll be glad we're up, spending time with him.

Ian's Gammy died yesterday. She lived a LONG LONG life though. And I'm just so thankful we got to see her Thanksgiving week (when she was still her spunky little self). So we'll be attending her funeral the end of January.

Well, I need to go finish packing...and call a friend to vent.

later.